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Unity

This is exactly how I feel about all humanity, not just Christians. This post is written from a Christian perspective, but the same idea can also be extended to bridge the gap between religions, if people are open-minded and loving enough to accept the idea.

Christian INTP

How do Christians come together in unity? This is probably one of those questions that has vexed many over the ages. How is it possible to show Jesus to the rest of the world when we have a hard time loving other Christians (John 13:35)?
It seems there are at least 200 official, distinct, denominations in North America alone with worldwide estimates of various sects being around 33,000. Many of these seem to be in existence because of issues arising from how one group sees some passages versus the other. However, this isn’t just about the traditional congregations that we all know. As I’ve continued my journey, I see many Christians outside of the institutions are just as divided as those inside. I’m not speaking to being united within a congregation alone but with all Christians that profess love for Jesus.
Now, there are those that would seek to promote their view over…

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A Self-Analysis

I have described myself on the “About” page of my Blog, but I want to add a little more depth regarding my personality and thinking processes. There are multiple sides to my personality; the serious side, the loving side, and the snarktankerous side. Yes, I believe “snarktankerous is the “perfect” word to describe that way in which I present my frustrations or opinions about others, the world, governments, politics, and many other things. If you have read several of my other blog posts, you already know what I am talking about! The more spiritual posts, however showcase my more serious side, and also some of the loving, compassionate side of my character.

On one hand:

I am a cranky and cantankerous (snarktankerous), sarcastic, cynical, skeptical, stubborn, ornery, grouchy, grumpy, old bear growling in pain and anguish, disappointment, disillusionment, and hopelessness.

On the other:

I am sweet, kind, gentle, loving, affectionate, open, honest, giving, generous, compassionate, and magic when it comes to romance!  Yes, I accept it as true about the romance stuff.  I totally base it directly on the first-hand comments of satisfied customers.   8*)

On my third hand (ya, strange, I know):

I am a very serious person, and contemplate the deeper aspects of God and life. I have little time or patience for silliness or partying. I am very sensual in bed. My greatest joy is to be passionately, sensually, tenderly loving and sexual with a woman I care deeply about. This is when the sacred experience of two becoming one can be experienced first hand, the most magical act through which humans can get a glimpse of the future “conscious” union between God and human. This is the great “promise” that the rainbow signifies, that ultimate conscious reunion of humanity and their God. This is the original promise given to Noah in the Bible.

Who I am really deep inside is related to my sun sign, Virgo, but how I express that is related to my rising sign, or ascendant, Scorpio.

I am the “Hermit” (Tarot card related to Virgo), which carries with it a very serious responsibility, to give a helping hand to those who are less far along the path of enlightenment. I take this responsibility seriously. My external facade seems sometimes rough or gruff, but at the same time, in such a way as to be humorous, such that people readily understand the truly loving person behind the grouchy exterior. The wise and strict headmaster, who everyone knows is really a teddy bear inside, who loves them dearly.

This is exactly why we so love the great wizard characters in “Harry Potter”, and “The Lord of the Rings”. That’s very much like how I am. The great acts of wizards, their magic, relies on the transformative power of “Death” (Tarot card related to Scorpio). I express my responsibility to others through the power of transformation. What better tool of transformation than the power to gently lead or teach others a different and better way to be and live? This is my magic according to Astrology and Tarot which are also part of who I am.

Now, on the thinking process side of my mind:

I have found that I think much more slowly than most people. This is definitely true in conversation mode for me. Most people seem to have a constant stream of trivial crap perpetually ready and waiting to spew forth from their mouths. I, OTOH (On The Other Hand), have an impossible time trying to break into a conversation which never seems to have a break. While others are busy talking, I am formulating a thought I would like to share about something important to me, or related to the conversation. Many times, I never get to share that thought, and the moment is over, the conversation moves onward….without me. After years of frustration, I just stopped trying to formulate ideas, or even trying to attempt to join a conversation. I have a new theory for why I think the way I do.

I have been wondering if I might be slightly autistic. I don’t know if this is even possible. I have always been a daydreamer, especially when bored with whatever is going on (which is a lot of the time), which at one point was diagnosed as ADD (of the inattentive variety, no hyperactivity here!).

I am the type of person who boils everything down into its essence, and summarizes and conceptualizes subjects, so I tend to be more concise in my writing rather than verbose. That is part of what makes my mind different from most. I have observed that most people remember a whole lot of details, like what they ate for breakfast the previous day, or the make, model, and purchase date of their first car. I promptly forget details almost the minute I am finished with them, and only remember that I DID eat breakfast, because that is the important essence of what I need to remember. As far as I am concerned, what is already in my stomach is useless trivia. What is done, is done. I am the worst person on the planet at any kind of trivia or guessing game, even charades! The answers just are non-existent in my brain. I absolutely hated history, especially filling my brain with useless names and dates. Even when we know the past, we still end up repeating all the mistakes anyway, constantly, so why pretend that we learn anything from other’s past mistakes in the first place? Every one of us is insistent on learning everything the hard way – just look at how well children listen to their parents! Hehe (how well did YOU listen to your parents, huh!?).

I make a good generalist because I can remember the important highlights and summaries of lots of different subjects; I am wildly (and widely) eclectic. The specialist, OTOH, remembers large amounts of details about a more limited field of interest. I can see the need for both types, but in my own experience, I have run across so many more people who love the details, and can remember events, places, names, TV stars, movies, music groups, the individual members of those groups, their birthdays…..the list goes on and on. These details are all the things my mind does NOT have in it. I did not memorize the quadratic equation in grade school, instead, I remembered the theory behind it, and could re-derive the equation from “a” squared, plus “b” squared equals “c” squared, which was much easier to remember. I actually did the derivation during more than one test. I was really proud that I could do that. Most other people would be like, “why don’t you just memorize the fucking equation?”. That is just the way my mind works, on the summary and essence of what is really important. Weird, I know. I am wondering if there are any others out there who have experienced the same phenomenon? The important characteristic it gives me is that I think long and hard on things, even though it makes my mind appear slower to others, especially in conversations. I think slowly, but well, and thoroughly. I pay attention to details as I need to, and dump the details when I am through with them, have written them down, or have used them in whatever project or idea I am contemplating.

Like it or not, this is all ME. Thank you for reading (if you managed to get this far)! Now that I have written this, and backed it up, I can promptly forget all about it, except for the fact that I wrote an involved post regarding my character and thinking processes, which I can always consult if I ever want to remember the details of this self-analysis.  8^)

DAY THREE OF THE 3 DAYS, 3 QUOTES CHALLENGE

This is the last quote in the challenge, so I decided to include a quote from a well-loved source………..ME!  Now, you may think that is cheating, but I don’t see any rules against it.  In fact, I may just throw in a bonus quote from me as well.  If you don’t like it, well, it’s my blog and I’ll write whatever the F*** I want!  So there!

Here it is:

“Never leave Fate in Destiny’s hands.” – Mark Kagy

It’s not very hard to figure out.  Those who live life without goals or direction are at the whims of their circumstances, always reacting to external forces.  They never assert their will to make something specific of their life, or to make an impact on the people and planet around them.  This may actually turn out fine for many folks, but when they die, what is there to remember about them?  What did they do with their life?  For others, because they used no initiative to help themselves, they end up blown here and there by the winds of circumstance, always in a crisis, never able to get ahead, always reacting to change rather than causing their own change to happen.

Revelation 3:15-16, NIV:

15‘I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot; I wish that you were cold or hot.16‘So because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of My mouth.”

We are all meant to live with passion, whatever we choose to do, be it good, or bad.  The only way to impact your life, and the world around you is to live with passion, and exert your will.  Act, rather than react.

I don’t mean for everyone to win the Nobel prize, or become an astronaut, or be a celebrity.  I just mean to take steps to control and direct your own life towards goals you set for yourself – whatever you want your life to be, based on your deepest desires.  Don’t repress those desires of your heart, act on them!  I certainly have not become famous, or won any great awards.  But I have purpose and direction.  This blog was started as a tool to accomplish a very personal goal – learning to get my ideas into a more organized form, and learning how to better express those ideas.  In practicing this, I am also becoming more sensitive to that small voice of intuition which provides Wisdom to all those who have ears to hear.  I am developing my inner senses to be more in tune with a higher spiritual purpose.  In order to know what that is, I need to listen carefully to my intuition, and my greatest desires.  This is not an easy process.  Try figuring out just what it is that you truly want or desire.  No, it is not easy, but in the end, I believe it will be worth it to all who take control of their own “vessel” and steer it in a specific direction, towards a specific destination.

So, I will include another quote of mine, which might just twist your mind a tiny bit.  Some will understand right away, and others may never get it.

“It is both at the same time – for all time, and in One place – everywhere.” – Mark Kagy

Have a great day!

DAY TWO OF THE 3 DAYS, 3 QUOTES CHALLENGE

This will be a shorter post….I promise (I think, maybe, or not)!

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The quote for today:

“Every particular in nature, a leaf, a drop, a crystal, a moment of time is related to the whole, and partakes of the perfection of the whole.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson

The “Holographic Universe” theory is a (not so) recent scientific and mathematical theory which may actually apply literally to our Universe.  Basically, that every piece of the whole carries within it, an image or shadow of the whole itself.  Now obviously a leaf from a maple tree cannot possibly contain the entire universe, BUT it can contain a fuzzy or hazy view of the whole.  The idea is that if you take bigger and bigger pieces, the pattern of the whole contained within a bigger piece (like a solar system) becomes a clearer and more accurate picture of the whole.  Finally, if you take the entire Universe as the piece you are considering, then it certainly contains a perfect picture of the whole Universe!  Each small part of the Universe carries within it a portion of the perfection of God.  See how I just snuck (sneaked?) God into the discussion?

My view of God, as I have written in other posts, is a pseudo-pantheistic view.  In other words, I believe that the Universe IS a part of, and made from the very substance of, God.  God’s actual body, or the perfect “reflection” of God, made FROM God’s own substance.  But in addition, I also believe that part of God exists outside of the Universe as well.  Basically (ya, I like this word and use it a lot), God is everything that exists, AND everything else that does not.  The Unity of Everything and No-thing (Nothing).  Reminds me of the “Something, Everything” album by Todd Rundgren.

So yes, I definitely resonate with Ralph’s idea that “Every particular in nature…is related to the whole, and partakes of the perfection of the whole”.  Just substitute “God” for “the whole”, and you have a fair statement of what I personally believe.

If you want to know God better, one avenue to take is to look inside yourself.  Indeed, we are a direct reflection of God (made in the image of God, literally, Genesis 1:27).  We carry God within ourselves, and we are made of God’s substance. God lives within us, and we exist within God.

  1. That which is below is like that which is above & that which is above is like that which is below to do the miracles of one only thing
  2. And as all things have been & arose from one by the mediation of one: so all things have their birth from this one thing by adaptation.

The Emerald Tablet of Hermes, Newton’s translation, Wikipedia.

Another method of approaching the understanding of God, is to meditate upon small objects, seeking to find what EACH reveals about God.  As you meditate on more and more objects, a picture of God is built up in your mind, and progressively becomes clearer and more complete.  Of course, this is a lifetime (or multiple lifetime’s) occupation, but no one said it was easy (insert huge smiley face).

That’s all folks, for day two of the challenge.

Tarot Card 18 – The Moon – Pisces

The long journey past the final edifices marking the limits of human endeavour, into the desert of previously unexplored, unknown possibility.  The spiritual soul shall break new ground and extend the human knowledge of its Divine Self yet one step closer to Unity, before shrieking in terror, and running two steps back to hide again in the safe familiar land of what is known and understood.  Then, tentatively stepping back to that new place, to gently and carefully contemplate that which was so recently discovered, and finding it to be somehow more familiar, and less terrifying than had first been supposed.

My Dire-y 06/15/2015, What Do I Do Now?

What on earth do I write about next, or now? I am at a minor impasse. It’s not writer’s block, I have ideas, but that’s not the problem. The things I want to write about are very serious, and will require a lot of focus and attention to produce. I grudgingly admit I don’t have any silly, humorous crap running around in my head right now….sorry everyone, I guess I haven’t been in a crazy mood lately. My mind has been on more serious stuff, like getting fit.

Here’s the deal – I have been laying around on my ass/couch doing nothing since June 2012 or before.  That is at the time I officially quit my last job and was in the process of waiting to be approved for Social Security Disability income.  Any muscle tone I had back then has surely now completely vanished.  But a friend and I have started to go swimming 2-3 times a week, so I am hoping to get back as much strength and muscle tone as I can through swimming.  If any of you be scoffers (imagine pirate accent here), as to the effectiveness of swimming as an exercise…bite me!  The last time (Friday) I came home from the pool, I was sore for two days, from just a few laps comprised of various strokes, walking (in, not “on water” 8*)-), and treading water (a little diving and swimming underwater too!).  I can definitely feel the difference.  So that’s what I’ve been up to lately, instead of writing more neat stuff which I know all of you are just on pins and needles, waiting for with bated breath….well, OK, you probably could care less, but you do seem to enjoy reading it when I manage to “pop it out”.

So, the ideas I have are all extremely controversial, and I am working up the courage to publish, as well as figure out how to present potentially inflammatory material to an unforgiving Internet public (in other words “troll bait”).  No matter what I say, many are going to disagree, and maybe even take offense.  One idea is for me to present my views on gun ownership and control in the good ole USA.  Ya, that should get some blood pumpin’ around here.  I am still holding on to a post about my spiritual beliefs, and reworking the format and presentation.  I probably need to make several posts out of it ’cause I don’t want to lose y’all who have short attention spans.  If that isn’t interesting enough for you, how about my views on abortion and pro-life/pro-choice?  Can you see now why I have not been cranking out the posts lately?  Half of the problem has been due to distraction and focussing on other things, and the other half is fear about how to present touchy subject matter in a way that won’t get me killed.  OK, maybe not killed, but without totally pissing everyone off, or starting a flame war.  (the good old days of the “alt” newsgroups, which some of you may be too young to know about.  God, now I really feel old).  So I hope this short, pathetic post will tide you over (ya, lots of clichés, gotta love ’em) till I post something really juicy!

You know, another thought just crossed my mind (WARNING: thoughts crossing my mind are definitely mostly sometimes maybe dangerous, or funny, or really stupid).  I can say with complete assurance, that the world would not be in the mess it’s in today, if all the governments would just ask me about things before making any decisions.  I’m really freakin’ smart about things like that.  In fact, why don’t we just get rid of all the stinkin’ governments, and money too while we’re at it, and just let me tell everyone the right way to do everything.  Ya, I’m really likin’ this idea, isn’t it great!  Nobody would go hungry, there would be food and drink in plenty for all, continuous celebration of life, recreational drugs for all, no more crime, everyone would be happy, Free Love would abound, and I might even get laid once in awhile!  Yes, the world might be in a DIFFERENT, worse mess, but it certainly would NOT be the SAME mess it is in today, Guaranteed!  Don’t you all agree with me on that? …hehe

In memory of beautiful, furry Kisa, may she rest in peace…

Why I Love Comments

I love it when people comment on one of my posts (or all of them). Of course, it is easy to see why I would like appreciation and flattery…who wouldn’t! The comments I would really like to foster and encourage are disagreements or differences of opinion with something I have written. These comments do one of two things for me. Either they tend to further cement why I feel the way I do or they offer me yet another perspective to consider, which could actually lead to me changing (updating versions of) my own opinion. These are both valuable outcomes for me. But it isn’t all about me, me, me…these comments also help other readers to reflect on their own ideas and beliefs.

Many of my posts involve serious thoughts on matters of faith, which are constantly evolving the more I learn and the wiser I become as a result of meditating on them. (some posts are just silly crap). Rather than simply accepting dogmatism, I constantly keep an open mind to what new things I can learn. What I value is the “TRUTH”, whatever it may be, and regardless of ANY established creed or religion. I would rather be uncomfortable with a difficult Truth than settle for a comfortable, but incorrect, belief system. Most people are not like that. They choose a church, club, group, or organization in which they most feel “at home”, and blindly accept whatever they are “told” is the truth. They are unwilling to put in the necessary time, thought, and soul-searching it takes to constantly continue to grow “towards” the Light of Truth. None of us has it right…we all continue to “miss the mark”, and will do so until we finally transcend this material reality and become ONE with the Ultimate Truth. Only then will we cease our sinning, when we come to finally know the “Absolute”. Very few people ever reach this state, and I need all the help I can get during “the long dark night of the soul”. That is why I like comments.

Do you have suggestions for me on how to elicit more comments? Tricks of the trade? Psychological manipulation? (well maybe not going quite that far! After all, those are the tools the established religions and governments have been using on us for centuries).